Mom.

Today I watched a mother
patiently wiping
her daughter's bottom clean

And I thanked God
that my mother
did the same for me

I thanked God
that my mother
did not leave me
by the roadside to die

I thanked God
that my mother
has the patience
to deal with my shit

I thanked God
that my mother
is still alive
till now

Accents.

Accents are weird.

Look at me. I grew up in Asia, and English is my second language. I come to New Zealand, and people over here asked me if I'm from America or Canada.

Why? "Because you got that accent".

And when I talked to American people, they'll be like, "Wow, your kiwi accent is so cool!" Wait, what?

That is so inconsistent. Oh, there's also this third party who just lumps me in the "weird accent" group.

In all honesty, I didn't put on an accent. Or anything of that sorts. I may alter the way I speak to accommodate to my listeners, but I don't feel like I put on accent. I may be wrong though, so meh.

Till then.

Friends (II).

Here comes the second post under the title of friends.

Lately I have discovered that I am really pathetic when it comes to making friends. Apart from Botak, I don't really have that many of people I can call "best friend". Maybe it's my nonchalant character. Or my inability to spend much time with them. Or my unwillingness to spend much time with them.

I have spend so much time being alone that it scares me to be with people for a long period of time. And since time is relative, yes, one hour is long for me. So be thankful, if you are among the few people I can stay and talk for hours without being restless and fidgety like an animal trapped in the claws of the predator.

So speaking about friends, one of the girls that I used to be closed to but not anymore in high school is getting married. Lets name her Rara. Now, I got the news from another friend of mine, Nana, who was a close friend in high school too (We are a gang of 6, including Rara and Nana). So I went, nonchalantly, and said congratulations to Nana when she told me about Rara (it was more directed towards the news rather than to Nana).

Nana immediately reprimanded me.

N: You should say it directly to her instead of me. 

Me: Yeah.. yeah.. I would if she had told me. I wonder, why didn't she tell me directly?

N: Maybe because she doesn't have your number?

Me: Yeah, but she has my Facebook..

N: Err.. I'm not sure.. Maybe she's.. sad that you guys aren't close anymore..

Me: Yeah.. Maybe it's that.. 

I find the conversation to be mind boggling. Some people grow up and still maintained the same circle of friends that they have in high schools. Some even from kindergarten. 

Me? I can't even keep the friends that I have around me. There's this selfish being.. deep inside me.. Who just walk away when the person that I invested time, effort, and money to make friends with, couldn't put in the same amount. Or when I couldn't do the same thing to the person who invested time, effort, and money to be friends with me.

Someone should really teach me how to make friends. And not just make them. Keep them too. 

Till then.

Time.

It's been days. Months. Not really a year but the calendar has changed. The silence was intentional, as life goes on, heading to directions that nobody knows.

It's 2014 bitch.

I still remember 2 years back, where rumours of how the world is going to end in December 2012. That was 2 years ago. Now look at us. Samsung is releasing a newer model for Galaxy, and so is iPhone. MH370 is missing, and Ukraine is being invaded by Russia after just finish dealing with their government.

So many things happening. But I'm sure you know more than me about what's happening in the world. After all, I'm just a frog in the well. And I'm choosing to just stay put where I am now unless it is really necessary to poke my head out.

I have so many things to write. And as usual, the time to write is only when I am supposed to sleep but I can't because of the noisy gears whirring in my head. It's a pain sometimes, but it's a good thing. Else, this blog will remained dusty and abandoned. Not something I would like to do to my writings.

Let's take this one day at a time. Till then.

He.

He is
the darkness
the light
the fire in my heart

He will
growl
grunt
to keep enemy at bay

He is
a destructor
a protector
the one for me

He will
love
lust
me, and only me.