Everywhere there are pictures of people with a smile plastered on their face, showing off how much fun they have with their friends. Eating together, go for a movie, or even enjoying sunset. Me? Lying down under my duvet reading manga on my phone.
How pathetic.
So I complained to my better half. How I am lonely and I want more friends. Good quality friends, not the shitty ones who calls you up when they need a favour and then just ditch you when they find someone else who are more willing to do favours for them. Not that I'm not willing. It's just that I want them to be willing to do favours for me too. To support me when I'm in need, not just making me their pillar of support.
I envy Botak. He have a few friends that would stick to him through thick and thin. And if these few friends cross some lines, after a few reprimands, they are still friends. Like, you can't even break that bond between them without having to put in a lot of effort. Me? If I didn't look for them after a few days, that's it. I'm considered a history to them. Which is sad, really.
Maybe the reason I don't have friends is because I hate people? Nah, impossible. Wait, maybe it is. I don't know. Sometimes I think people are stupid and don't have common sense. And no, I did not think myself as better than everyone else. Matter of fact, I think I am too hard on myself. I mean, that's what people said, so it must be true.
I don't even know what to think of anymore.
Oh well, till then.
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